Hey there, friends, how is everyone doing these days? Did summer swallow you whole like it did me? I have politely asked August to be a dear and spit me back out with a more manageable schedule! Summer was intense!
In my last blog post I mentioned I'd like to be writing more, "on the regular". I also posted it waaaay back on June 12th! When I started writing this post it forced me to take a look at what the word "regular" means to me. I find we use words like this quite often and they have a very subjective meaning specific to each user. What does it mean to you? What do you see in your mind when you think of the word?
Words can be funny like this. For example, unbeknownst to my conscious mind, "regular" has become one of the words I thought looked a certain way. However, my reality of the word is completely different than I had imagined. I've been trying to think of something I do "regularly" and I've come up with a lot of things I'd like to do, but don't! It's amazing how one word can cause such a soul-searching journey! Coffee...I drink coffee regularly! I shower regularly, thank goodness, but seriously, I'm not coming up with much else!
So here's what I figured out about the word "regular" for me...Being realistic with what's on my plate is something I'm not always honest with myself about. I underestimate my time and I want to do it ALL, not just some. This causes me to rush through things, feel flustered and then freak out because there's so much more to get done. In the end, I don't enjoy any of it, which is sad and frustrating. Life is meant to be enjoyed.
This has been a focus of mine for the last couple of years, appreciating where I'm at and what I'm doing rather than trying to manage the next thing. This is the reason my "regular" has been in flux. Like so many other things in my life, it's a work-in-progress, pardon the mess, type of situation, also known as growth! Yes, I enjoy writing, more than I thought I would. Yes, I thought I would have posted more blogs by now. However, my adjustment of "regular" allowed me to enjoy my fast-paced, hold onto your pants, crazy summer with my family and I'm beyond thankful for having had the time with them! The early mornings, the hot softball games, the dust, the late nights, the travel, the constant laundry and packing of food, I could go on...But here's the thing, I enjoyed it all. Oh, don't get me wrong there were moments where all I wanted was to slow down a bit or sleep in here and there but missing the activities didn't feel right in my heart-space so I didn't. I'm thankful I didn't schedule myself right out of all the enjoyment because I could've done exactly that, in the name of "getting things done".
So kiddos, I think what I'm trying to say here is this has been a success in my eyes even though this is only blog post #2! If any of you reading this can identify with this post then stop what you're doing, take a deep breath, and thank yourself for all the crazy in your life. Inside all the crazy is the magic! Wouldn't you agree?